Why I’m Not Reflecting or Resoluting Right Now
Since it’s that time of year, I started to write reflecting on 2015. I got all the way to actually writing down a few things I had learned in 2015, and I went blank.
Who am I kidding? I’m not looking back type of person. It makes sense to do it, but I can barely remember yesterday, let alone last January. So, I wanted to look at the coming year.
The problem is I’m also not a looking forward kind of person. I don’t make goals or resolutions. I seem to be surprised so often by what happens in life that making a plan doesn’t make sense.
And before you say, well, by not having a plan of course you are surprised. I don’t mean that. I mean that even if I had a plan, the twists and turns that are inevitable in life are a surprise and often a wonderful one. So, planning isn’t my thing either.
This leaves me out in the cold as it is the first week of January, and all writing must pay homage to this big event.
Which made me wonder if this really was that big of an event anyway. A date on the calendar that says let go of the past and make yourself new.
Then comes today, January 2, and we’ve already failed on the goals a little. By February, we are defeated, have given up, and just decided to let go of the new and keep the old. Why does January 1 have to be the only day to start over?
Why not live by this from Momastery:
“365 new days, 365 new chances.”
So, here’s what I can tell you:
I am going to try out the One Little Word idea for 2016 and am using the word, “Worth.” It’s a word I’ve struggled with for awhile, and it’s time to find my worth in what God says, not myself or others. Look for more posts on it as I work towards walking in my worth, not just saying that I know God sees me as worthy.
And that’s it. Because, see above, I’m not a reflecter or a planner. More of a vaguely themed, do-over every day-er.
Although don’t hold me to that, I did see a “Dream Guide” by Jennie Allen that looked intriguing and a beautiful 2016 printable from Ann Voskamp that looks great, especially when you see how she filled it out.
Of course, don’t hold me to doing them either. As you may have heard, I’m not into changing myself just because it’s January. Maybe in February.