What To Do You When You Feel Nothing Ever Changes
Change beckons. Conviction jabs at the soul about my “I wants,” my “it’s all about me,” and my “normal” Christian life that is nothing like the Bible. The desire to live differently swells up.
Yet, my life stagnates.
Life gives me amnesia. Busyness with me makes forgetting the other easy. Work, dishes, laundry, family. Immediate needs squeeze out anything else.
I may have given more stuff and money away recently. Cleaning things out and donating them to good causes. Giving money to organizations that I believe in. But, really all of those things didn’t require stamina. I don’t ever have to do them again. Long term change takes stamina.
Real change takes consistency in motion.
Our lives fill with inert moments. There has to be a force to get us to change. But God, the ultimate force, He doesn’t force us to do anything. He breathes in a gentle wind.
So, I make plans to change. I make an incremental change. Then forgetting my view for change, I go back to rest.
I need the stamina for the real race of change.
I’m insta this and micro that. I want to plant a seed today and sprout my tree tomorrow. A sprinter, not long distance runner.
Long distance runners start slow, knowing the race will take time and energy.
To be a long distance runner, as someone who hates running and therefore doesn’t, I’d have to train. Run a little. Another day, run a little more. Take days off. Stretch. Rest. Run. I can’t wake up and run the distance day one.
Failing is defining success by big numbers and immediate differences. Truth is changing my trajectory by one degree today and continuing down that path will mean I am in a new place a year from now.
Change beckons. I hear and I respond. Daily.
When I remember I have forgotten, I start again.
When nothing ever changes, stand firm and don’t give up on change happening. Because strangely, real change happens when we stop waffling and changing.