How I Began to Believe in God
There once was a girl who didn’t believe in God, even though she went to church each week. She had decided that it was all too illogical to believe in. People smarter than her had read the whole Bible and didn’t believe. Their arguments made sense. Faith did not. She was a people pleaser and rode on the waves of desiring acceptance from those she admired. Those she admired didn’t believe, so neither did she.
People pleasing also meant a lot of stress. She made sure she had good grades and upheld appearances. Sometimes she didn’t know which person to please because there seemed to be opposing views of what would be best. She really didn’t know who she actually was a lot of the time because she was busy trying to be who she thought she should be. At school, she was often quiet and shy in class. Not speaking up made it easier to make sure she didn’t disappoint people or give a wrong answer.
Then one day she became close friends with some Christians who went to a different church than she did. They seemed happier, kinder, and more loving than she was. She thought it was because they went to a different church. Turns out, it wasn’t the different church that made them different from her. Turns out, they believed in God–fully, truly, and completely.
One of them explained it to her. He told her how we all live imperfect lives marred with bad choices and actions (sins) ever since the Garden of Eden. These sins are directly disobedient to God. They taint us and keep us from getting close to a perfect and Holy God. So, God sent His son, Jesus, to live a perfect life and then die on the cross to pay the cost for our sins. Three days after he died, God brought His son back to life so that he conquered death and all the sins that life brought along with it. By believing in this Son as the one way to God and asking for forgiveness for all that we have done, we can restore our relationship with God and live closely tied to Him. His Spirit will live within us and guide us.
“So, you’re telling me you actually believe all of this?” she said.
This girl was shocked that her friends really believed this and lived this belief out. These kind and loving people believed in God. They were smart too. Somehow faith began to make sense. She believed it too.
Since believing, life has not been perfect and she has not been perfect either. Yet, there is a hand that guides her in life and a feeling of acceptance she never knew before. When she does wrong, there is a knowledge deep down that she acted poorly. When she asks God’s forgiveness, she knows that He has forgiven, and she can ask other people for forgiveness too without as much worry of what they will think of her. People pleasing is still a whisper in her ears, but God pleasing is a trumpet that rings truer and louder. She is more confident in who God created her to be, takes more risks to live for Him, and knows that His love is more important than any other’s.
So this girl asks you now, who are you listening to? Would you like to listen to God? The first step is to believe.
If you know someone who needs to hear these words, please share it with them, or share your own story of faith. As it is the season of looking at Jesus’ birth, we need to be sharing how he has made an impact in our lives. Share with us your story of knowing God too.