Hiding My Diploma
It all started when I told someone, “It’s a little known fact, but I went to seminary.” She was surprised to find that out, not because I don’t live like a Christian or have insights to share in our study. She was surprised because I had just never mentioned it. I had made it a “little known fact” on purpose. I didn’t want anyone to expect things of me.
Honestly, I often feel like the very worst seminarian, who has forgotten more than she ever learned. Also, I just wanted to hide. My faith was struggling a bit after having been treated harshly by some other believers. I didn’t feel like I was worthy of being used by God. I was just a mess.
But God, he had other plans. He used that one small sentence shared with a friend to super convict me. It’s no longer time to hide. It’s time to put my faith into action or just leave it alone. So, I’ve struggled through that and decided to start taking some risks for God. As I did that, I was confronted with how much we “comfortable Christians” take in teaching and don’t apply it.
Look at that lesser known part of Jonah in chapter 4. Go past the boat, past the big fish, past Nineveh repenting. God gives Jonah a plant because he’s hot and throwing a fit. Then God gives Jonah a worm to eat the plant. Why? Because God wants to save Jonah as much as he wants to save Nineveh. Jonah needed to know that God is not about his comfort but about his heart. Jonah’s heart was ugly, self-centered, and didn’t care about others who didn’t know God. I’d like to say that I’m in no way the same, but then I cry over my washing machine breaking but not over the lost. Jonah 4 is about me too.
This blog is a chance to start putting some wheels on this thing. We will walk together, you and me, and start trying to live out our faith. We will stop worshiping comfort and start worshiping God, who doesn’t care as much about our comfort as we do. Are you in?